Omg I haven’t been on Tumblr in literally FOREVER! I missed it sooo much <3 I know I’ve been gone for the longest but I’m totally back now! Kay so basically, I was sick and hadn’t gotten on the computer for like 5 days first and then my computer broke and after it got fixed, I got grounded -__- so this is seriously my first time getting on the computer in like two and a half weeks I think. Jena, I’m SOOOO sorry! I feel terrible about having missed so many posts but I’m back now and if you still want to continue, then I’m here.

Kay soooo let’s see… today I had the most unexpected thing EVER happen to me. A year and a half ago, I had this best friend that totally cut me off because I liked him and his girlfriend didn’t like that. That’s a ridiculously short version of what happened and going into details will probably make me cry but this morning before going to school, I checked facebook and found a message from him asking me to text him. When I read his name in my inbox, I didn’t move for about two minutes straight. I hadn’t talked to him in a freaking YEAR and a HALF!

So, when I first read his message, I was elated. It was the best morning of my life. After, I felt pissed off that he had betrayed me in shutting me out of his life because his girlfriend said so and I got even more enraged when I assumed that the only reason he wanted to speak to me was because he and his girlfriend probably broke up.  A few minutes later, I broke out into tears. It took me three hours after reading his message to decide to finally text him.

When I texted him, I was scared it would get awkward and weird but after a few responses back and forth, it seemed like we’d never stopped speaking. I keep reminding myself not to get my hopes up too high because with this particular guy, they always get crushed. The thing about him is that he was my first and only true love I’ve had and even though I was adjusting to not having him there to talk to, I thought about him every single day. One day, I was in the car with one of my best friends and she had her iPod hooked up to the stereo. One of his songs came on (he’s an amazing musician) and I nearly burst into tears then and there.

Yeah, basically, he was a big part of my life and we’ve been texting literally all day O_o it’s weird in a nice way talking to him but I’m just not sure what to think. I asked him what made him want to talk to me again and he said he’ll tell me when we speak on the phone. I guess I’ll have to wait for that.

Enough about him.

I GOT MY LICENSE TODAY! Isn’t that awesome? I’m pretty stoked. Sadly, the photograph they’re supposed to use is the one from the day I got my permit and let’s just say I look like I should be on America’s Most Wanted. Luckily, my dad said he’ll help me pay to get a replacement once my first one comes in the mail though :D So yeah, I had a long, eventful day and if Jena still wants to do this, I’ll post tomorrow :)

Goodnight <3

- Ena :)

I think I’m going to quit this. :/

I colored my hair back to normal today. Soon I have to write an essay or study for chem.

 Wooo.

My favorite thing to do with brian by far is cuddle until we fall asleep….

Politics are an annoyance to me. Here’s the #1 reason why.

 In this world, people don’t do what they’re good at or what they should do or what’s best for the world; people do what they want. The government is made up of people. People lie and keep secrets instead of promises. People are too powerful and controlling or too weak and ineffective. There’s no in between. People aren’t perfect. People let other people take the fault for them and allow suffering and do things mostly to benefit themselves. And guess what, there’s no perfect government either. If men were angels, the world would require no government, but they’re not and it does.

 I can’t even begin.

God Dammit Selena it’s been like a week now really?

 Today I thought about writing again. I’m going to ask Mitch for the chords to the only song Soaria ever recorded and put it on the Piano. Then I’m going to make it pretty. And THEN it will be on facebook. I swear it will. It’ll happen.

Selena Get Better Soon, okay?

Today I’ve decided this:

In the spring, Abby and I are going to Kellys Island.

We’re going to take more awesome pictures in the ruins of an old winery and explore ALL of it this time.

And the beaches.

And walk around the quarry.

And build a sandcastle.

And drink strawberry daiquiris at ‘The Casino’ with Chicago.

And have strawberry shots.

And run around the plaza area and make friends with the kids who own condos and work in the general stores.

And I will learn how to play poker this time.

And watch Pineapple Express the whole way there and back on an ipod.

And I’ll have my licence. :’)

And you know what

I CAN’T FUCKING WAIT.

 On a separate note, Harry’s love life keeps being altered by his parents:

•  for every text he sends to Caroline, he has to send one to a Mormon girl
• for every date he goes on with Caroline, you guessed it, he has to go on one with a Mormon girl.
• he’s too good of a person to lie to his parents and they can read his texts anyways
• the only Mormon girls in this school are: Chelsea who isn’t 16 and thus unapproved of by his parents, and Kendal who is plain, illogical, unattractive and obnoxious
• He really likes Caroline and dating anyone is just going to be impossible.
• maybe we’ll make up code words

The first month is over. In total I’ve missed one day.

So today in psych I was contemplating how the world would work if your true emotions were always plain as day on your face. Like, if I could look at people on the street and know what kind of mood they were in. Maybe if their aura changed just like a mood ring. We could probably determine mood by which chemicals are released from the brain.

But then you would realize how different people are. Sociopaths would probably be the most interesting. Maybe people wouldn’t even be depressed because as their mood changed you would see it and attempt to change it back. Or you could use at as a tool to make people twice as mad or scared.

Who knows?

For me, Saturday night at the rock off was like a giant I-told-you-so followed by all the tension that’s built up over time being calmly released…. and then weed and honey. Let me explain.

Around noon I woke up and packed to go to Abbys. I got there and no one was home so I walked back to her room just as she was getting out of the shower. She got dressed and we put on makeup. Then we played Anthony Green records and the piano and made mac-n-cheese. Her mom got home and set up things to paint the walls and so we took the car to walmart for money and to pick up Brian. While getting Brian, we got a call from Blakeman (Blake AKA Abby’s boyfriend who was driving us to the rockoff) that he and Sean are already at our house. We get back, five of us cram into a tiny car and drive to House of Blues in Cleveland.

Sean then pulls out these water vapor cig and a bag of airheads that he got with Marcs ‘paid’ stickers. I’m not big on cigarettes at all, so I pass on those, but I grab airheads for later. Abby says there was no flavor in the cig so it tasted like piss.

We got to the rock off and there was a white girl rapping Nicki Minaj very badly in high socks. She was cute though. Eh. Then there was this band of guys in waist coats and they were so cute. Blake and Brian were totally jealous…. I’m gonna post some photos later. Their music was also good.  http://www.youtube.com/spittingimagemusic Megan and I both told the lead singer he’s adorable and we hope to see them at finals. We will I’m sure.

 Harry is the kid I went to that thing for, and he had the night of his life. His romantic interest even showed up in a shirt she wrote ‘Sundrops’ (Harry’s band) on. It was cute. Harry is Brian’s best friend, so Brian and I both stood right below center stage and I got some awesome shots. But you know, the music didn’t sound as good as expected and everything sort of fell short. Everyone on stage was dead but Harry… who flailed wildly everywhere and then pretended to die on stage. Mitch (the rhythm guitar) really wasn’t having it and you could tell he didn’t approve. But my biggest fear was that the band would do well… it’s hard to be sympathetic because ‘Sundrops’ didn’t make finals when they ditched me for one of my best guy friends. Maybe next year I’ll show them.

 On the way home we crammed back into the car and drove thirty minutes home. Sean had to stop at Bob Evan’s to pick up this bottle of… I don’t even know. It’s this huge bottle of alcohol the size of like a two liter around. Supposedly it tastes like green Gatorade or something? Then we sat at Mitch’s house for about two hours and got mauled by a Rottweiler. Fucking hate that dog. They’re trying to get rid of it, but it jumped on me like five times and produces so much drool…. just ew.

 Took Brian home, got to Abbys. Pretended to go to bed. Abbys mom went to bed. Stood behind a fence and did illegal things I’ve never done before. Then ate everything and watched Gnomeo and Juliet because we’re hardcore. It was so cute though. I regret nothing.

Too much homework. Tomorrow. Ughhh.